observer. artist. cat lover.
That moment when you’re flipping through old photographs of yourself, in embarrassment, wondering, “WHO was I?!”
I made myself a deal today:
I’ve decided to look back at my early 20’s with compassion for the girl I once was, rather than shame. I’m going to forgive her for all the promises she made to herself that she never kept, for restlessly seeking happiness in all the wrong places, for making mistakes time and time again, and for drinking a little too much on the weekends..
In fact, I want to THANK her; the girl who always thought she was prettier puckering up her lips for the camera than actually showing a genuine smile.
You, young Brandy, have helped me grow into the person I am today: a more compassionate daughter with an unbreakable faith, a woman who has become aware of her self-worth, refusing to settle for “MEH” relationships, a woman who has finally absorbed the bravery to let go of emotionally toxic friendships.. a woman who became courageous enough to explore the world without reservation, never giving up the hard work until the job that allowed me to realize that dream was mine..
Thank you for mustering the strength to pull yourself back up every single time you took a fall, and for being a little scared to be true to yourself, because hey, what 21 year old doesn’t struggle with a little identity turbulence? It’s ok. Insecurity pumped through your veins more often than not, but you know what? You did good, kid. You lived careless and free and supplied me with memories to last a lifetime.
If there is one thing I’ve learned throughout my travels and endless wandering, it’s this— Home isn’t a place. Home is WITHIN. Don’t be afraid to face yourself for ALL that you are - its a courageous act, almost always daunting to do so, but we owe it to ourselves to toss aside our masks and get real. Forgive yourself, let go of the impossible ideals, and don’t put your happiness in the hands of others. Own your life. Once you come to terms with and accept all that you are - the good AND the bad - that home within you will, with time, become the only refuge you’ll ever need. No matter where you physically are. And there’s nothing more content than knowing you’re finally home.
-Brandy Massoglia5 months ago • 0 notes