October 25, 2009
I really do. But I look for the person I convince myself you really are, deep down.  He is who I want you to be.  But you’re not.  I’m silly to believe you’ll ever change for me.  I keep hurting myself over and over believing you will. But why is it that I am fabricating YOU of all people? We have a past we don’t want to let go of.  Spun with lies, deceit, and bitterness.. yet, a passion for each other that isn’t easy to ignore.   I truly feel like I hate you sometimes.  I wish you’d lose every thing in your life, reach an all time low, so you’d feel how lonely I feel sometimes.   But sometimes every thing is okay.  And I enjoy resting my head on your shoulder, inhaling your scent.  Reminds me of old times.  We have fun together when we’re not bickering.  Then I start all these scenarios in my head that we’ll run away together and declare that it’s ‘us against the world’.   Enough is enough.

I really do.

But I look for the person I convince myself you really are, deep down.  He is who I want you to be.  But you’re not.  I’m silly to believe you’ll ever change for me.  I keep hurting myself over and over believing you will.

But why is it that I am fabricating YOU of all people?

We have a past we don’t want to let go of.  Spun with lies, deceit, and bitterness.. yet, a passion for each other that isn’t easy to ignore.  

I truly feel like I hate you sometimes.  I wish you’d lose every thing in your life, reach an all time low, so you’d feel how lonely I feel sometimes.  

But sometimes every thing is okay.  And I enjoy resting my head on your shoulder, inhaling your scent.  Reminds me of old times.  We have fun together when we’re not bickering.  Then I start all these scenarios in my head that we’ll run away together and declare that it’s ‘us against the world’.  

Enough is enough.

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